Friday, April 10, 2009

It's Time Again



On Monday we will be heading up to the Children's Hospital for another round of Scans and Xrays. I think I am more excited this time and less anxious than the last time we went up for her scans. She seems to be doing really great! She is gaining weight, growing hair and getting attitude. She is starting to babble a lot more. I think at times when she doesn't get her way she even tries to let me have it, although it ends up sounding more like a turkey gobbling than her talking (she is quite partial to her "l" sounds right now). I sometimes look at her and wonder when she got so big? She seems like she has gone from my little baby to my almost toddler just over night. I had an opportunity to visit with a woman in my ward that has cancer as well. I don't know a lot about her story as I have been quite involved in my own daughters cancer lately, but I was so impressed when I spoke with her and her husband. She unlike my little one is still fighting for her life. As I listened to her tell me a little about her situation and her future treatments I felt such a peace come from her. Now, I know that sounds weird, but let me explain why I felt that way. She told me that she is nervous for what she has to go through over the months ahead as she begins her treatments again, but I don't know exactly what she is feeling emotionally - physically - and spiritually. Despite the things that I don't know, I still have to say that my heart was touched by her cheerful disposition and positive remarks. I could tell that this woman is one that is facing her challenge head on. She has a wonderful support system and cheering section. She is relying on Jesus Christ to carry her during the times that she cannot physically and emotionally do it herself. Her face and eyes looked peaceful despite her challenges. Talking to her and her husband reminded me a little bit of how my husband and I felt when dealing with our daughters diagnosis and treatment. It is interesting to look at this woman and then to look at others that I have come in contact with that feel life has given them lemons and that they are not able to go on, that their trial isn't fair, that they lose sight of the positive and only sink deeper into despair everyday. Life has challenges for all of us. For some it is illness, for some it is finances, for some it is relationships and for others it is spirituality and the list could go on and on. I am convinced that no matter the degree of difficulty when we take our challenges head on, with a positive attitude (as hard as it may be) putting forth as much effort as we can possibly muster and then turn the rest to the Lord we will be able to turn those challenges into areas of strength. That we will be able to find happiness amidst the struggles. We will prevail. With that said, I was completely touched in the few minutes spent with my neighbor and her husband to the point that I was in tears as I drove away from her house. My testimony of the help our Savior gives to us through our toughest times was renewed and strengthened. I know that this is an amazing family that no matter what is thrown their way, they will be steadfast and strong. They will be able to get through all that happens in the months and years to come.

4 comments:

Carter Clan said...

Sarah,
Good luck with the tests this week. Hope all goes well. Your testimony and strength are very apparent in your words. Thanks for sharing.

Angie said...

Doesn't the Gospel put things in such a better perspective?! Good luck on Monday and we will pray that everything goes smoothly!

Doug and Carol Ann said...

Thank you for those sweet and humble feelings. We are all so blessed as we go through challenges and great blessings. We can see the strength that you all have gained as you go through this "Cancer" experience. Love you

Dennis and Maridee said...

You have a special spirit, Sarah and Mike, and the love that is in your home can be felt the minute you walk through the doors. We know you will be blessed this week as you take another step on the road to recovery. Instead of walking down a lonely, barren road, you are on a road that is filled with strength on both sides. We love you. Love Aunt Maridee and Uncle Dennis